mercurial.

Do you ever have those days, those weeks where you just feel off? Where you feel like you’re drowning in your life?

Moving + going back to school full time + starting a new job + readjusting from Europe + trying to make friends means that I’m having some of those weeks.

My senior year in high school I did it all. Took 5 AP classes, student government, played the piano, interned, tutored, active in church activities, and went on dates at least twice a week. HOW? But I loved it. I was brilliantly happy and busy as a bee.

But now…I never seem to be able to get it all done.

Go to class

Go to work

Study

Take tasts

Dress well

Shower

Look put together

Cook healthfully

Exercise

Volunteer

Read my scriptures

Go to church

Clean the townhouse

Do the dishes 

Balance and budget money

Apply for internships

Apply for scholarships

Be a thoughtful friend

Be an energetic date

Be a good daughter

Figure out what you’re doing with your life.

You could say I’m struggling, hard-core, to strike a balance between work and play. Between “do now,” or “wait till later.” To find a way to breath and enjoy myself as I chug along.

And this lack of balance means lack of stability.  Mentally.  Emotionally. Up down up down up. Down. 

So today, I’m grateful for the little things people do to help me out.  To keep me on the up. Because really, those are the big things.

KARMA SHOUT OUT TO:

                  The random couple that offered me a ride when I was late to class.

                  The friend that called ME after my roommate got engaged. Who checked up on ME.

                  The friend who made me macadamia nut cookies to get me through an intense study session.

                  The friend that knew I was swamped with 4 midterms in 5 days and would space my homework, so did it for me without being asked.

People that help people are cool, you know?

And if you're stressed out, I recommend a good dose of puppy.   (Or these cute cams from Hellogiggles.com)

I've been neglecting this blog as of late, and I seem to be full of empty "I'll do better" promises. BUT I'LL DO BETTER GUYZ.  I want to write, but am having some serious writers block. Suggestions?